(HIDING PLACES PT.1)

It was the best night I ever had
Until someone broke the silence
Which then caused me to notice
Your lack of a response
It was completely defending
Your dramatic flare
When you speak on your experience
You make it seem so real
The feeling of your fingers
Pressed against my urge to stall
I gave you a chance by stating
How that hard it has been

To get older
I grow shorter
Moving faster
Hold me please

I'm getting older
Growing shorter
Moving faster
Hold me please

Please please me
Just do what you want with me
I would give up whatever
If it meant I'd fall asleep
I had a dream I was there
It began to fade and strain
Memories into feelings into a
Distant past or present that I

Just can't quite recall
Without a catalyst
That started all this
Moving past it (x2)

(HIDING PLACES PT.2)

Emotional manipulation
Has destroyed my self perception
Fearful of the future
Unreasonably scared
(But I'm)
Held together
But still I'm not that strong
Its been three years now
Its not enough to move past
If I try hard enough
Will I start again
Its so hard to come by
It so hard to recall
I time where I was valuable
But now I'm so small

Now I'm Face to face
With the ocean
In rural southern America
Its so blue And so vastly
Expanding
Across the horizon
But What are bullets
To me
If I am drowning

(The moment ends
The drums stop
The rocking of the waves subside
He thinks, but does not understand
As one foot gets pulls upward
The other does not move
The three are separating
From a distance they diverge
Gunshots far off in the distance
He sees the spaces in between
He knows he must act soon)

Fantasies and dreams
Of someone discontent
Of anyone who knows me
Anyone who will connect

An offhand remark
Of a subject so obscure
A well thought out reply
While being quietly ecstatic

They will offer their signature
And I will dutifully accept
I open my eyes and realize
That I'm not quite there yet

Exiting the backroom
to see a Face that I remember
To fight or flight or something
Anything to escape

She reminds me of myself
Wrapped inside ring
She thinks that she's happy
But she doesn't know a thing

I finally met a someone
And I finally connect
open my eyes realize
That I'm not quite there yet

(RETREATING)

Dreams are often fiction
Until it all comes around
Then you'd wished you hadn't slept in
I wish you were never here
Finding out this friction is
Not only being caused by
Your Complete Lack of ambition
but your character as a whole
I don't know what I'm waiting for
But I'm saving up for something
Once everything all works out
I will know what it means

I will wake up tomorrow
Hopefully but then again
But I'm moving past it
Growing older
But my nights grow louder
Without a theme
Retreating